my peter
Your eyes smile,
the way your face lights up when you see me,
your soft voice,
lingers in my ears like a sweet melody.
The way you tell your stories,
I wait for them every day,
a quiet joy I hold close.
I’m stuck like glue to you,
how do I break free,
when I’m happiest by your side?
The truest, freest me,
only exists with you.
How does the day lose its weight,
simply because you’re here?
I feel like I was someone else,
lighter, more alive,
because loving you,
feels effortless,
and seeing your smile,
fills me up completely.
It shatters me when you’re hurting,
my heart breaks when you cry,
when you say no one understands,
I fear I haven’t tried enough,
I wish I had,
I wish I could be with you forever,
But I know,
I’m not the best for you,
never was,
not loving enough,
and that’s the wall between us,
the reason I hold back,
from loving you fully,
Because I know how hard it would be,
if I don’t love you,
the way you deserve.